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Here
follows a selection of significant extracts which give the
reader a flavour of Annable's writing style.
The
First Paragraph
It had
been a dreadful mistake. On that cold morning of Thursday,
November 21st in 1963, Simeon Hogg, sitting on a large trunk,
guarding his luggage, was thinking that he had made a big
mistake. He was surrounded by crowds of strangers. He was
surrounded by an alien cacophony of confusion and disorder
- and he hated it. Even at the age of 18, he did not take
kindly to change. He never would take kindly to change and
this was the biggest change of all: this was emigration
to a new country. For the Derbyshire working-classes back
in 1963, emigration was final. It was forever.
Simeon
Hogg had been uprooted from everything which was warm, kind
and familiar. He had been torn away from everything which
was British, English and Derbyshire. This, single, stressful
experience had made a powerful impression on the teenage
Simeon. Even at the age of 60, he would still suffer the
same recurring nightmare. A suicidal scenario - arrival
in the cold, hostile environment of the USA with very little
money, no friends, no job, no qualifications, no prospects
and the dread realisation that all the security, comfort
and familiarity of Derbyshire, an ocean away, was out of
reach - for ever.
From
Chapter 3
Finally,
the long car turned a corner and was floating due east.
They had left the endless residential area and entered an
ugly commercial zone. It was littered with myriad poles
supporting a hideous hotchpotch and profusion of power lines
and telephone wires. This was a three-lane highway, but,
as it seemed in such a large car, they crawled from red
light to red light. It was explained that the speed limit
of 45 meant just that. The police were very keen. About
a mile passed, a mile which was cluttered with scruffy hamburger
joints and shabby gas stations. The former screamed out
cheap food in garish flashing neon signs and the latter
yelled out low, low prices, as low as 19 cents a gallon,
on tacky boards. No grass, no trees, not even weeds would
grow from the roadside which had been poisoned by years
of winter salt.
From
Chapter 10
Toads,
goblins, gnomes and fairies. Detroit had offered nothing
like this. Toads were difficult to see and it was impossible
to see goblins or gnomes since they did not exist any more
than fairies existed. Fairies. Simeon recalled Duck. Duck
often took him to the Belper River Gardens some fifteen
years before. To a small boy it was a magical experience,
made all the more magical as interpreted by a caring and
imaginative adult.
Man and boy would explore the old osier bed alongside the
slow, green River Derwent which had, in 1905, been transformed
into a beautiful garden. It was a delight of glades, rock
formations, alcoves, islets, avenues and terraces. Simeon
enjoyed the contrasts between the open promenade, lovers'
walk, the fish pond, the fountain and those special nooks
and crannies, apparently known only to Duck. Here the imagination
could run riot. There were rocks picturesque and rocks grotesque.
The child was guided into hidden glades. Here he would see
deep, spongy moss growing on damp boulders. Here he was
entertained with stories about the 'little people', the
fairies. Bright sunlight became dazzling bright green when
reflected off the ubiquitous fern. Such unusual illuminations
complemented various dank corners and black caves.
Duck
explained to little Simeon that if he had enough faith,
if he tried hard enough, if he believed in the spirits of
nature, if he was lucky enough, he might just get a glimpse
of elementals in human form. The small boy was very happy.
He recalled the warmth of the sun, the cool of the shade,
the light and the dark, the scent of ramsons, the music
of birdsong and the gentle coaxing voice of nice, cushy
Duck, gentle Duck, but - he never did see the fairies.
Perhaps
now, in 1965, at long last - he had found them.
From
Chapter 14
In Lea
Gardens they reached an area where David selected a comfortable
rock for a sit-down. Simeon wandered over to an old drystone
wall beyond which, to the south, lay a wood of beech trees.
He mounted a boulder to stare into this intriguing green
paradise, broken up by bright spots of sunlight illuminating
a carpet of fallen leaves. The sun seemed to be playing
with him, playing tricks, creating interesting effects.
Smooth grey trunks supported a canopy of gleaming, lime
green leaves and, beyond, in a distant glade, a miniature
forest of new bracken, wet and glistening with fresh rain,
looked inviting. Loderi called him to look back into the
garden. He caught the scent, one of a multitude of sweet
scents, enhanced by the damp carried on gentle cool zephyrs.
That same fragrant air was also full of the song of blackbirds.
Some seemed to have rhythmic motifs. One in particular could
be pictured as saucer shaped - up, down and up again - and
so on. Another seemed to vocalise - 'Billy Fury' 'Billy
Fury'. To change his views, Simeon changed his position
by jumping around from boulder to boulder - all different;
some upholstered with thick moss, some hairy, some bald
and some decorated with flyaway fine grass. He took in splashes
of colour, lavender, magenta, peach, tangerine and lots
of whites - soft whites, creamy whites and those delicious
whites which show a hint of lemon ...
He had not noticed David, who had stealthily come up to
his side, shattering this private reverie. The voice had
startled him and, since he was not aware that his behaviour
and countenance were so revealing, the question was slightly
embarrassing. Notwithstanding, he attempted an answer, an
honest answer.
"A want this. A want to stay in Derbyshire. A don't
want to go back to Detroit."
The
sun went in. It looked very much like another shower.
They walked back to the car in silence.
From
Chapter 31
With
further amusement, Simeon noted that, in such flame and
fury, in the grip of strong emotion, Mr Pod's accent had
a tendency to deteriorate, to regress to its original Derbyshire.
"Oh, yes!" he continued with vehement sarcasm.
"No work for our Nobby. Oh, no. A nice easy life for
Nobby - stupid little turd ... "
Aubrey
Pod brought this tirade to an abrupt halt. His young friend's
laughter had ceased. The smiling expression had turned to
a look of sheer horror. The eyes of Simeon were fixated
on two other eyes. They had met two hideous eyes. They were
old, grey eyes, leering, eyes like the eyes of dead fish
- cold, no warmth. These ghastly eyes were sunken into a
face which was like something out of a nightmare. The boy
was bayoneted to the spot. He was held in hypnotic fascination
by penetrating, lascivious eyeballs, deeply set in a leathery,
gnarled countenance which could have been part of the rough
bark of an ancient oak. And, surely, this ancient man must
be as old as any old oak? His large hooked-nose, complete
with ugly warts and blackheads, was worthy of anything which
could have been penned by the Brothers Grimm - and, indeed,
it was grim. The mouth, which, at the present time, had
teeth, seemed not to have teeth. It was a slash. It was
a mouth which was more accustomed to being toothless.
Just
as Simeon recognised Nobby the Gnome, so now he knew that
he was in the leering presence of the famous Belper Goblin
- Jasper Wormall - no less. And, in an instant, he knew
the reason why the revolting Becksitch Betty was called
a hag and this freak of nature was referred to as - a crone.
From Chapter 33
I've
been with Tommy for 18 years. We are known as 'an affair'.
Sounds a bit prissy doesn't it? What was your word?
" " An American would say 'my lover'."
"Mmm. Better. I refer to Tommy as 'my friend'. It's
safer. All of us, homosexual and heterosexual, we need a
new word, an all-inclusive-word which acknowledges the fact
of same sex couples."
"There's another word you don't seem have here. If
you have casual sex with a guy in Detroit, he's referred
to as a 'trick'."
"But the best advance," replied Martin with enthusiasm,
"is the American term 'gay' - an inspired word. 'Homosexual'!
It sounds like a disease. Its constant use keeps reinforcing
that particular prejudice in the heterosexual mind. Most
gay people around here use the word 'queer' to describe
themselves! And men who are not 'queer' are termed as 'normal'!!
Beat that!"
"I'm not too keen on the word 'straight' - as used
by the S&C boys in Uptown Detroit. That suggests that
I'm bent!"
"You'll never be that," laughed Martin, "Only
crones are bent. It comes down to this, Simeon. We, the
homosexual community, are impaled on a whole lexicon of
terms which continue to degrade, to demean, continue to
reinforce our feelings of inferiority with reference to
the heterosexual majority. It has to change. It must change."
"How?"
"I wish to God that I'd spent the last thirty years
trying to deal with that problem, trying to do something
worth-while, rather than prosecuting and defending. It's
all to do with the call of the cash-box and, I suppose ...
trying to rub Hoadley's face in it ... "
"Pardon?"
"Nothing. Damn it, I will answer your question. To
start with - role models."
"What?"
"Role models are people you can look up to, people
you admire, people you would like to be like. Someone you
can identify with, who will help you to feel good about
yourself. So who is your chosen homosexual role model, Simeon?
Mmm, speak up ... Jasper Wormall? Aubrey Pod? Nobby the
Gnome? Simon Tonks? Guzzly Granddad?"
"How about David Bond?"
"Not bad."
"Martin Harcourt QC."
"Improving - but I've made my point. How often are
we represented positively in films? There are plenty of
effeminate spies, effete traitors and cowards. Pod's a good
example of a poltroon. What do the public see? They see
that sad, ugly, camp thing in A Taste of Honey and they
see 'queer' - and thousands of young guys like you rush
off to hide, to take refuge for the rest of their lives
behind the shield of an unhappy marriage."
Simeon
remembered the gentle and kind Geoffrey, who was played
by Murray Melvin.
"Gay Detroiters even have a term for repressed homosexuals.
They're known as 'closet cases'."
"And, look at what it does to us ... ," carried
on Martin. "We are a pathetic bunch! The Derby and
Nottingham scene is infested with a culture of pretentiousness
and affectation. It's as though we've come to detest each
other, to despise each other.. "
"So ... ," ventured Simeon.
"So, back to your question of 'how'. It will be a long
haul. A lot of hard work, and we'll need a good leader -
like Dr King."
Martin
Harcourt QC sprang up, paced up and down the short space
of that tiny 'room' a few times and came to a halt in front
of the homosexual boy whose future had ignited this current
agitation. He sat down and fixed the boy with a determined
look.
"OK. I'll tell you how. I intend to dream on. I do
have a dream. Money. Public money. Tax-payers' money will
be needed from the very public who have put us in this precarious
situation in the first place." He leaned forward. "Remember
this, Simeon - human unhappiness has effects far beyond
the individual himself. It reaches out to touch the lives
of everyone. It is in the interest of the state to help
all homosexuals. Accordingly, we'll need money. We need
money to employ a team of professionals in every town and
every city in Britain. We need to build up a homosexual
community for men and women - a whole lot better than the
bitchy mess we have at the present time. We need trained
counsellors to help and to give chaps like you (and girls)
the free advice you need. We need diplomats, people in government
who are competent in public relations to improve the homosexual
image. We need experts from the world of advertising - image
makers who can change perceptions. We need professionals
who are accessible, who will encourage, advise and warn.
We need an alternative to stinking toilets, dangerous parks
and seedy pubs. We need a friendly, comfortable place where
old, young and even the freaks of Derbyshire like your toad,
your goblin and that gnome, can all drop in and have confidential
chats - a sort of support service. We must forge links,
meet the needs of the whole homosexual community, stop ignoring
the women, pull together ...
I suppose - I'm talking politics ... it can be done.
We must, at least try ..."
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